『Samskeyti』
（個展 2018年 ワコールスタディホール京都）
【展示風景】
These photographs are pertaining to my father.
15 years ago, my father was fighting for illness. During the period I was only shooting my mother who was taking
care of her husband. This is because that I was afraid of facing up to a death of my father. As a matter of fact,
there are only photographs of my mother left which made me even more realize that I could not shoot own my
father and was unable to be with him as I should have been. This fact remained in my mind as great regret.
There was a reason that I could not face my father. At home he was always irritated by something and used to
shout at me and my whole family. Thus, my mother tried to put us stay away from him, and of course we avoided
him as much as we could.
However, I have got a little memory of him which he used to take only me to a church on Sundays although he
was not Christian. And I never asked him why he did that.
Since my father passed away I started visiting a church whenever I go to an abroad. This could be because of that
time only my father and I shared at the church.
In 2014, I had an opportunity to visit Iceland and found an isolated church in the middle of breathtaking beauty
of nature. When I saw the landscape with the church, there was a moment that my feeling started overlapping
within a figure of my father and the church.
After I came back home from the trip I made a contact with a researcher from whom I discovered a reason for
building a church in the middle of fields in the country, whereas the most of churches I ever seen in other abroad
are built in the centre of a town. According to the researcher a majority of residences in Iceland is scattered widely,
and although a location of churches is also seen in a rural area, the church itself is the place for meeting and
communicating with other people to the residents. Because of that, seeing the church recalled a figure of my father.
I used to believe that being unable to face to my own father created a distance and no relation between us as a
father and daughter. However, visiting the church in Iceland realized me that I always had a father who was there
for my family all the time.
So here 1 am now in Iceland, again in order to shoot photographs of a church.
I have been visiting a lot of churches since my loss, but at last I find time to be reunited with my father and started
embracing the moment of being with him.
(2016)
*Samskyeti means to join, junction and seam in Icelandic.